So my birthday has been playing on my mind a lot (obviously) and I got thinking, at what stage did I stop being extremely THRILLED for birthdays and new years with new beginnings to now, anxious, nervous and scared. However, I think I have it sort of figured out.
My 25th birthday was the hardest birthday yet because it was a milestone which ended up being a pebble in retrospect
When I was younger, I had set these (somewhat unrealistic) goals for myself that by 21, I would be A and 24 I would B etc and then I didn't meet those goals and it's ok that I didn't because had I met them I would have been a completely different person to who I am now and while I am not the "perfect" (almost ) 27 year old Natalie, I think on most days I like myself and the person I have developed into. And while I definitely don't have it all together and I am not the married with 2.5 kids living in my dream house, I have accomplished things I would have never thought possible. At all.
Do you get this way about your birthdays? How do you usually feel about them?