I've always prided myself on not being a hypocrite but such is life when you bite your tongue and hang your head in shame as you give into something you morally don't agree with.
I know I'm being cryptic and I wish I could just write out and share with you guys what's going on my mind so I can get it off my chest but I can't because I don't want to humiliate the other people involved but I'll just say this: the one thing people have always said about me is that I'm so straight forward/ so honest/ so trustworthy and now I've been asked to support a decision I don't agree with and I feel like a fraud.
I've been really battling with this because it's not just that I don't agree but other people I'm close too agree that to support this decision is wrong and yet we're all doing it...
You see we so things we wouldn't ordinarily do for the people we love but my conundrum I'm suffering through today is... Would they do the same for me? Or better yet, how much can you write off your own sanity for the sake of being the "better person"?
I know, heavy thoughts for a Friday morning but this has been weighing me down for weeks and it doesn't feel it's going to get any better.
So, thoughts?? Support without (with little) judgement or preserve your integrity?
2 comments:
First off, everyone is a hypocrite. And thank goodness, because anyone walking around totally perfect is going to make the rest of us feel horrible by comparison. All you can strive for is personal integrity. But even that if a flexible thing. Is it worth backing out and sticking to your ideals? That depends on what you have to gain and lose by that decision. Only you can make it (sorry, wish I could help!) but listen to your gut more than anyone or anything else.
I dont know enough to make too much of an informed statement, but I will say this... everyone of us can be hypocrites at one point or another. And you are so right about doing things we wouldnt ordinarily do for people we love. I think what matters at the end of the day is that we have good hearts and want to do good things etc. Every man is flawed.
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