DISCLAIMER: This is one mixed bag of emotions in this post.There aren't any pretty pictures to go with this post just raw emotion.
I've always prided myself on not being a hypocrite but such is life when you bite your tongue and hang your head in shame as you give into something you morally don't agree with.
I know I'm being cryptic and I wish I could just write out and share with you guys what's going on my mind so I can get it off my chest but I can't because I don't want to humiliate the other people involved but I'll just say this: the one thing people have always said about me is that I'm so straight forward/ so honest/ so trustworthy and now I've been asked to support a decision I don't agree with and I feel like a fraud.
I've been really battling with this because it's not just that I don't agree but other people I'm close too agree that to support this decision is wrong and yet we're all doing it...
You see we so things we wouldn't ordinarily do for the people we love but my conundrum I'm suffering through today is... Would they do the same for me? Or better yet, how much can you write off your own sanity for the sake of being the "better person"?
I know, heavy thoughts for a Friday morning but this has been weighing me down for weeks and it doesn't feel it's going to get any better.
So, thoughts?? Support without (with little) judgement or preserve your integrity?